Blissfully Single...

Blissfully single...is that even possible? I've been contemplating that a lot lately. I'd say that most times, I'm content and single, but blissfully? Probably not. And I will admit there are even days, probably more than I'd like to admit, that I'm really not even that content. There are times I sit at home on a Friday night watching a movie or tv and I really wish I had a strong man to curl up next to and cuddle with. There are silly times I wish I had a man too, like when I find a huge spider and have to spend five minutes convincing myself I'm a big girl and can kill a spider on my own. It would just be much easier if I could scream like a little girl and have my boyfriend or husband come running to the rescue like a knight in shining armor to kill said spider! Then there are times I realize it is kind of nice to be single, and I try to remind my self of those times. I never would have been able to do some of the things in my life that I have done, like moving across the country for a flight nursing job if I had been married with a family. I know that as in Ecclesiastes 3:1 "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens" So, I realize that this season of my life is just a time God has set aside for me to be single. I guess I just never thought this season would last quite this long. I struggle with knowing how to trust God completely with this. The rational part of me realizes that God isn't just going to drop some guy out of the sky into my lap one day for me to marry. But, if I go "in search" of a guy does that mean I'm not trusting enough? I really don't know the answers. I want to trust God completely with this, I'm just not sure how sometimes. I am however, becoming more and more content to wait patiently if it means I will be completely head over heels in love with the man of my dreams someday! I look at some of my married friends, and I see what they have, and I'm willing to wait for that with the right person, rather than settle for the wrong person and not be happy. My sister is getting married this coming spring and I couldn't be more happy for her! She has found a great guy that adores her and makes her happy! Did I ever really imagine my little sister would get married before me, no...but I also never imagined 10 years ago I would have moved 3 times and had some amazing experiences in my nursing career including being a flight nurse. You just never know where God is going to take you. I realize that being single right now is the season God has placed me in and I want to embrace it! God has blessed me in so many ways, so who am I to complain about this one little thing of being single. I have an amazing family, awesome friends, a good job that I enjoy, a great house to live in, what more could I ask for? I know there will always be those days where I will have a "pity party" and wonder "why on earth I'm still single", or "what's wrong with me?" and I think that's normal to an extent (at least I hope it is!). I think about my cousin and I. We are both strong, independent, successful, fun young women, and yet we are both as single as you can get. What guy wouldn't be thrilled to find a girl like either of us, yet we can barely even get a date or acknowledgement from a guy. I'm not really sure why. Although deep down, I think I do know at least in part that the real reason is because God wants us to be single right now. It's figuring out why that is the tough part. I think maybe in part it is to truly prepare us for the men he has for us one day. And I guess that is comforting knowing that God must have someone really special for us to have us wait this long. So, in the meantime I will try my hardest to live everyday to be at least contently single, if not blissfully single!!