I’m a MOM!!!

A month ago today I became a mom!  I went from being a single, independent, do whatever I want on my own timeline kind of woman to an instant mom of a school age little girl!!  To say that life looks a lot different now would be the understatement of the year!!  Is it hard, you betcha!  Is it tiring?  Yup!  Is it worth it??  Absolutely 110% YES!!!  

I honestly still can’t believe sometimes that this is my life now!  I had a good feeling that mothering and the natural motherly instincts would come fairly easily with a baby since that’s what I know the best, but I really wasn’t sure how easily it would come with an older child!  In fact once I said “Yes” and knew she was coming I kind of panicked because I felt like I had no clue what to do with a little girl her age.  But it’s actually felt more natural than I ever expected it to!  Everything from bedtime routines, and school day routines have felt really natural.   The moments and memories we’ve already shared have been priceless!  Loving her and becoming attached has been so easy and such a joy!! 

I know without a shadow of a doubt that much of our success and how well this has all gone during this first month is because God’s hand has been on us and this whole situation from the very start!! The times I’ve felt completely overwhelmed and unsure of anything God has been right there guiding me and giving me the confidence to continue moving forward!  I wish I could share more of our story and how God orchestrated everything for this precious girl to be in my life, and maybe one day I might be able to, but for now just know that it’s really all HIM!  

It’s hard to believe it’s already been a month with this sweet girl, but at the same time it almost seems like I can barely remember life before her!  Despite all the times I had doubts about whether I could really do this single foster mom thing, I know now that I absolutely can (with HIS help) and this is the best decision I have ever made in my life.   The amount of joy, fun, laughter, and love I have experienced in this past month has been more than I ever thought possible!  To think that if I had let my fear or doubts stop me from taking this leap and missing out on having this girl in my life is the worst thought ever.  I am SO grateful for the support and encouragement I have received and that I took this step of faith because I cannot even fathom not having this girl in my life!  

Now you might be thinking, ‘now Kristin, isn’t dangerous to let your heart fully love her and get too attached?’ And yes, it is a risk!  The main goal of foster care is always reunification with biological parents or family if safe and possible.  So yes, there is a very real possibility I might have to say ‘goodbye’ to this girl or any child I foster, and of course my heart will be completely broken and shattered if/when that does happen!  But what if I didn’t love her fully, or become too attached?  Is it worth saving myself from heartbreak by only loving a child half-heartedly, or not showing a child what healthy attachment looks like? No, absolutely not!  These kids need and deserve to be loved just as though they had been born of my womb!! So that’s what I’m doing!!  This girl may not have any of my DNA or been born from me, but she absolutely has grown in my heart and I will love her just as fiercely as any child I could have given birth to!  

I know I’m only a month into this thing called motherhood, but as a friend recently told me “you were born for this!” and I really feel like that is true!!  I’m certainly not an expert, and I’ve already messed up, but this girl has taught me so much about love, forgiveness, and just being a mom!  I’m so incredibly grateful for God bringing us together, and I am happy to love and care for her for as long as he will allow it!! 

Patiently waiting...or trying to at least!!

I’ve been licensed now for about a week and a half and I’ve gotten referrals/calls for somewhere around 15 different placements. Unfortunately I’ve had to say no to all of them, but one.  

I got a call this past Friday for a little one that I finally felt confident saying yes to without any hesitation! I was so excited! I started getting things ready and did a little shopping for a few outfits and essentials with my mom Friday evening. I spent the weekend praying for that little one and preparing myself to love them and protect them for however long I would have them. Then on Monday I found out I wasn’t getting the little one after all because they placed them with a different family. I was really disappointed and a little confused about why I didn’t get them after I said yes, but my agency and a few friends said unfortunately this isn’t uncommon because the DCS case managers will call multiple people and agencies and will often just place with whomever says yes first. It still didn’t take away the sting of it, but I’m trying to trust that God has another kiddo He wants with me in His timing, and that that little one is with the family they need to be with. 

It’s so hard to wait and have to say no to so many placements. Some of them have been outside of the parameters that i am licensed for. However, there have been several kiddos I wished so badly I could say yes to, but either I didn’t have the right number/type of beds, or they were just not going to be a good fit for me starting out as a new foster mom. I feel so guilty for that, like I’m a horrible person for saying no so many times. It breaks my heart every time I have to do it. I try to say a quick prayer for each kiddo or kiddos that I do get a referral for and that God will put them in the perfect home. However, it still isn’t easy, but I am so committed to this and trying to be the best possible parent I possibly can be for whatever kiddo God wants to place with me that I know I cannot take this lightly. If I say yes to a kiddo that has more needs than I can deal with or handle by myself as a single mom I won’t be doing them or I any favors! Ultimately I will either not be able to provide that child the things they really need, or I will become so overwhelmed and stressed that I may even have to disrupt the placement. I do not want to find myself in that situation if I can avoid it at all, so that’s why I’m being so thoughtful and “picky” I guess about the placement I do take. And perhaps from the outside looking in it seems like I am just being too picky, and maybe I am, but this is my first time taking a placement and my first time parenting so I’m trying to kind of take it easy on myself this first time around. Foster parenting is not like “regular” parenting. There are so many unknowns, everything can change at a moments notice, and most importantly these kids have all experienced some sort of trauma, and that’s all on top of the regular struggles of parenting in general (not that I’m an expert by any means)! I’m trying to be patient and give myself grace while I’m waiting for the right kiddo to come along, and I’m praying that I will know that in my heart when I do get “that call”! 

I knew this wouldn’t be an easy journey, but God is teaching me so much every day! I still have a lot of moments that I struggle, and I second guess myself a lot, but somehow at the end of the day I am able to rest assured that God is in control and that He has a perfect plan for not only me, but all of the children I may or may not have the opportunity to love in my home!! So, I will just continue to pray, wait, and trust that at the right time the perfect kiddo will be placed in my home! 

June 21, 2019...

This day has probably been one of the best days of my life thus far!!  But before I explain...let me first rewind a bit.  

The past couple weeks have been full of a million different thoughts and emotions.  About three weeks ago my licensing specialist sent me a message saying that the state had reviewed my home study and foster care application and had a few more questions about some things.  At the time she told me that this wasn't anything out of the ordinary and that it isn't unusual for the state to come back with some questions.  I answered the questions to the best of my ability and obtained some more documentation and everything was re-submitted.  About a week later I received a phone call from the licensing specialist and as soon as I saw it was her calling my heart started racing!  I really thought and hoped that she was calling to tell me that the state had approved me and I was licensed, but the moment she spoke I could tell it wasn't good news.  My heart immediately sank and I had that awful feeling in the pit of my stomach that said this was not good at all. She proceeded to tell me that they were not ready to approve me and that they had more questions, pretty specific questions, about a few things before they would consider approving me.  Without going into a lot of details, ultimately I would basically have to have a health professional write a letter on my behalf answering all of the state's questions and stating that they agree I am okay to foster.  Getting this completed has not been easy.  I have been very frustrated, felt like this was God was closing this door, and I began to lose hope.  I was afraid to even pray for God's will because I was so sure I wouldn't like the answer!  As of yesterday I was trying to be as hopeful as I could, but my will was nearly gone and I was pretty certain that even if we obtained the letter and documentation to re-submit it was still ultimately going to be a "No".  I went to bed last night trying to muster as much hope as I could, but also feeling almost at peace with the idea that this was just another door closing. 

Okay, let's fast-forward back to today...I got a message from my licensing specialist this morning that she had (finally) received the letter she needed to re-submit my home study and application to the state and she had just re-submitted it.  Literally, exactly 10 minutes later I received a message from her stating the following: 

"They approved it!!!!!!!  It was quick!!!  You are now officially a licensed foster parent!!!  Congratulations!!!"  

YES!!!  You read that correctly!!  I am OFFICIALLY A LICENSED FOSTER PARENT!!!  Even as I type that happy tears are streaming down my face!!  I can't even put into words how happy I am!!  After months of training, paperwork, a roller-coaster of emotions, and lots of hoping and praying it has truly happened!  I realize now that the peace I was feeling last night was God's way of telling me just to rest in Him and that He would be faithful!!  Friends, he is SO faithful!!  I feel almost silly and embarrassed that I ever doubted Him!!  I honestly don't know if I've ever cried so many happy and grateful tears!!  This dream I've had since I was a little girl of being a mom is coming true!!  I still can't believe I'm typing those words!!  It still feels so surreal!!  God is SO GOOD!!!  

Now, you might be wondering "what's next?".  Well...more waiting essentially, but good waiting!!  Waiting for that phone call for a possible placement!  Basically, they will call, tell me that they have a possible placement, then I can ask questions about the child (which they may or may not be able to answer), and ultimately the decision is up to me.  I never have to say yes.  In fact, they encourage you to say no if you have any doubts.  The ultimate goal is for the child to be safe, for the child to be happy, for me to be happy, and to prevent any disruptions (a child being moved to another foster family).  So...now I wait with open hands and an open heart for the right baby/kiddo to come along! 

Okay friends, now I feel like I'm rambling and this is becoming a novel, so I'm going to wrap this up, but I just want to say a couple final things...First, thank you so much to everyone who has prayed for and supported me during this journey!  Those thoughts and prayers are so appreciated!!  Second, I want to ask for continued thoughts and prayers because let's be real...this journey is really just getting started!!  My life is about to be flipped upside-down and I know it will not always be easy!!  I covet your continued support and prayer as I begin motherhood and this life of foster care!  

Finally friends, I just want to say again that God is SO Faithful!!  If he has called you to something, if you are in the midst of one of life's storms, or if you are just searching for what comes next don't lose hope!!  (Easier said than done, I know)  Throughout this entire journey, even when I didn't feel it and when I thought I was alone and finding it difficult to trust, God was right there in the middle of everything!!  He has carried me with His grace through all of the ups and downs, He has proven that His promises are true and that He is ALWAYS with me!  And friends, He will always be with you too if you just let him!!  

And all of this is why this has been one of the best days ever!!!

In Awe...

I’m sitting here in my nursery thinking about how within just a few weeks (or even less) I could be sitting here rocking a little one to sleep, or tucking a little one into my “big kid” bed and I’m really in awe...In awe of how God has picked me to do this, in awe of how he started preparing me to do this long before I had even begun to consider it, and in awe of how much he loves me!  

It amazes me that God has chosen this journey for me sometimes! I kinda feel like Moses and the burning bush talking to God and saying “Me God!? Really!? Are you sure?!? I’m single remember!? I live in an old house, on one income, and I’m pushing 40! (Sigh) NOW is when you decide to make me a mom!?” And every time I have that little conversation in my head with God I just feel that little “voice” saying “Yep! Just trust me!”  So that’s what I’m doing! Stepping out of that nice sturdy boat to walk out on the choppy waters and I just have to keep my eyes on Him, because if I don’t this girl is going to drown quick!! (Wow...that was a quick transition in metaphors! haha)

The other crazy part of all this is how God has been preparing me for this for so long! Looking back on my life I know even my early days in the NICU as a brand new nurse learning to care for and calm babies affected by substance abuse, or rocking babies who didn’t have family visiting was all starting to prepare me for this journey. My trips to Africa where I learned my heart could love a baby with my whole heart the moment I met him!  The passion He placed in my heart for orphans, and vulnerable children and families. I had no idea at the time, but all these little things were preparing me for this foster care journey He has me on! 

Through all of this, I’m also learning and am just simply in awe of the amazing love He has for me! I can already feel the love in my heart growing for this child or children I haven’t even met yet! Sometimes I feel like my heart could explode with the love I feel growing inside me!! I may not be physically growing this child in my womb, but I feel as if they are growing inside me all the same!! And to know and realize that the love God has for me, and for these children is infinitely greater than what I will ever feel is just simply awe inspiring!! 

Grace in the Journey....

My foster care application and homestudy were officially submitted to the State for approval a week ago! I’ve spent this last week feeling so many different emotions, but despite the nerves and even fear, I am mostly just happy and really excited!! I can’t wait for this oh so quiet home to be filled with the sounds of a little one laughing, or cooing, or even crying! (Maybe ask me how I feel about that in a few months! Haha!) In some ways this journey has seemed like it has taken forever, but in other ways it has flown by!! It’s almost surreal that in as little as 3-4 weeks now I could potentially be licensed and get a call for a placement any time!

As the reality of having my foster care license and becoming a mom starts to get closer and closer, I’ve been thinking a lot about the journey that has brought me here. I’ve come to understand and accept that this journey is not normal...it’s not something that most people will understand. Choosing to become a single mom in the foster care world is not something people see everyday. I know it will be hard, and perhaps even misunderstood at times, but I wouldn’t want to be on any other journey right now!! It hasn’t been easy, but I’ve learned so much about myself, and the amazing Grace and Faithfulness of our God!

To be honest...a year ago I was not in a great place spiritually...I was struggling with a lot of hurt from “the church” and carrying a lot of bitterness.  I had pretty much stopped going to church other than occasionally watching a service online from the church I loved when I lived near Indianapolis.  Over time I would feel the Spirit tugging me back to Church and into communion with God, but many times I resisted.  But God continually persisted and pursued me and woke me up to His Grace and His Faithfulness in ways I could not have imagined! It was that gentle nudging from the Holy Spirit and God’s continual pursuit though some of those online sermons, the godly counsel of friends, and finally a book that led me back into His loving embrace and ultimately into this foster care journey.  I finally realized that carrying all of that bitterness and even anger wasn’t hurting anyone but myself!  I learned that once I let go of that bitterness and stopped trying to live life on my own terms and walked into the beautiful Grace he so generously offers, I would find joy and peace and a life I could not have imagined!!   The book I read is titled Grace is Greater by Kyle Idleman and friends, it did me in!! It wrecked me in such an amazing way!!  The words in that book were like a spring of water for my tired and thirsty soul!  It taught me not only how to humbly accept His Grace, but then also extend that Grace to others!!  The joy that is found in that Grace is like no other!!  Here are a couple excerpts I loved:


“We can all find ways to reach the conclusion that I’m not that bad, but in doing so we miss out on God’s great gift of grace. Until we recognize our need for grace, we won’t care about receiving it.”

“The worst thing that could happen is that you spend your life trying to outrun God because you think he’s chasing you to collect what you owe – when he’s really chasing you to give you what you could never afford.”

“God’s grace is compelling when explained but irresistible when experienced.”


It is only because of His pursuit and His Grace that I am even on this foster Care journey!!  I’m actually still pretty blown away that He chose me to do this!!  I’m humbled and honored!!  I’m just trying to be faithful and trust that He knows what he’s doing!!  I am choosing to walk obediently into the unknown and I can’t wait to see how it all unfolds!!  I have never felt more in the center of God’s calling and His will for my life than I do right now!!

Instagram and spiritual warfare...

In the past 48 hours I think I have experienced just about the entire gamut of emotions that one can experience!  I've gone from feeling completely drained, defeated, and torn down to the kind of joy and affirmation where tears of joy roll down your face.  I knew this foster care journey would not be easy, but I did not realize how difficult and tumultuous the licensing process alone would be!  Twenty-four hours ago I was ready to throw in the towel.  I thought the doors were closing, I was confused and felt like I had made a huge mistake even thinking I could ever do this thing called foster care.  Doubts had not only crept in, they had taken up residence and were making themselves at home!  Why?  You name it...the devil has a sneaky, way of using thoughts, words, and feelings to manipulate us and try to break us down.  I can't really say that there was any one thing specifically that had me feeling so hopelessly defeated and insecure, but rather a combination of a lot of little things.  All I knew was that I felt every bit of opposition one could feel.  If you have any doubts about whether spiritual warfare exists, let me confirm for you right now that it does!  Don't believe me?  Do something big that God is calling you to and you will no longer question it!  The enemy is sneaky, friends!  He's sneaky and will use whatever he can to get to you.  It's hard for me to even describe what I felt in the past couple days, but I can tell you that it wasn't good, and that it wasn't of this earth!  I know I probably sound like a crazy person saying all this, but I felt it and I nearly let it win.  But thankfully, God intervened!

In my confusion and uncertainty I reached out to a couple godly, dear friends who never cease to cheer me on, support me, and pray for me through all of life's ups and downs.  I was chatting with one friend and toward the end of our conversation she asked me how she could specifically pray for me during this time of confusion and uncertainty.  I asked her to pray for clarity and peace if I was to continue, or that if the doors were closing that I would know that for certain and have peace about it.  We wrapped up our conversation as it was getting late and I opened up Instagram as I often do right before going to sleep.  As I began to scroll through the posts one of the first things I saw was this: 

Tears immediately welled up in my eyes and I knew...I knew this was God telling me to continue to move forward and follow this calling!  I knew this was God's "voice" speaking to me!  I can't say for certain what Moses felt when God spoke to him through the burning bush, but this was as close to a burning bush as I've ever experienced and it was the most joy-giving, doubt-stomping, evil-killing affirmation of something I've ever experienced!  I am convinced this post was put there right at that very moment just for me to see it.  How could I ignore that?  In my eyes it read "Someone, Somewhere, is depending on YOU Kristin, to do what God has called YOU to do!"  In the few moments that followed, with tears streaming down my face, every doubt and uncertainty I had were quickly replaced with the kind of peace and confidence only HE can give!  It was a complete, explicit answer to prayer in every way possible!  I knew in those moments that no matter what I may have felt, God held the answers and held me safe in His plans.

In the wake of all this I sit here tonight completely humbled and in awe of God and the fact that He has called ME to this!!  Why me?  What have I done that has led him to decide to use me in this way?  I feel so honored and humbled that God has called me to this.  That I get to be someone He uses to love these precious kiddos!  It's been hard to even know how to respond, other than in obedience and praise.  As another friend said when I told her about this experience "Praise Him.  Just roll with it!  In my experience, things start to fall in place really fast once you decide to lean into all that He has for you."  I'm pretty sure rather than leaning I'm probably clumsily, tripping and falling into Him, but thankfully He catches us no matter how we get there!  I'm so grateful for the loving arms HE provides for us to lean (or fall) into!  If I've learned anything in the past few days it is this...God is fighting for us!  God is fighting for ME!  It may come in the way of a friend's encouraging words, by way of burning bush (well at least for Moses), or by way of an Instagram post, but regardless of how it comes He will come through!  If he calls you to something, He won't ever leave your side!  Even if it feels like the world is fighting against you (and it might be), God is fighting for you and that's all you need!!  The uncertainty and the doubts may never completely go away, but we have a very certain God who will never leave us or foresake us!! Friends...This journey won't be easy!  I am learning more and more every day that this thing called foster care is a world all it's own!  It's a world where things aren't fair, life is hard, it's messy, and it's one of the most beautiful things I've ever witnessed all at the same time!  I have no doubt that this will not be the last time I feel this kind of turmoil, or have these kind of doubts.  But tonight I rest in this message from my God: "Someone, Somewhere is depending on Me to do what God has called me to do!" Tonight I rest knowing that I can lean into His arms!

I'm preparing a place for you...

I have my first home study visit this coming Tuesday, so I've been trying to get things ready in my house so that I can make the best impression possible.  I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous!  In fact I'm feeling all sorts of emotions!  Everything from excitement to fear, and everything in between.  I'm happy that I've made it to this point in the process and that it's been progressing well up until now, but I'm also afraid and nervous that something could still happen to prevent this from becoming a reality.  I just keep trying to lay all these fears and anxieties down at my Father's feet and allow His will to prevail no matter what that is, but to be honest it's hard sometimes.  I'm human...I still have a hard time trusting at times, but I try to keep reminding myself that when I do trust Him, He is faithful and carries me through whatever circumstances I'm in! 

As I've been getting things ready in my house, buying a few things here and there for the baby/kid rooms, cleaning and organizing, etc., I've actually started to allow myself to imagine what it might be like to have a little one in this home with me!  I fold the cute little onesies and think about the little one that might someday wear them.  I see the bed where I might be kneeling down to tuck a little boy or girl into bed for the night.  I imagine what it will be like to hear the pitter patter of little feet on my squeaky hardwood floors.  All these preparations for a little one I haven't even met yet, but my heart is already swelling with the love I want to show them!  I am praying over this home, that whoever comes into my care will know they are safe and cherished and loved, not only by me, but more importantly by our Heavenly Father!  All of these preparations have reminded me of how Jesus has gone before us to prepare a place for us too!  What an awesome privilege it is to know the creator of the universe is preparing an eternal home just for me!  I only hope that I can provide just a fraction of the kind of love God has for us to this little one I have yet to meet!  Oh little one...I may not know who you are yet, but God does, and He is helping me prepare this earthly home just for you!  I can't wait to meet you, and I promise I will love you well for however long you are in this home and beyond!! 

A new journey...Fostering in love.

Where do I begin?  I guess at the beginning.  Anyone who knows me well, or maybe even not that well, knows that orphans, adoption, and loving children is something that has been on my heart for a very long time.  I can remember being a little girl and thinking I would one day like to adopt.  Fast forward to 2012 and I met my sponsor son Bobby and the idea of adopting internationally was sparked.  However, over the past couple years it has become really clear that adopting from Uganda is not part of God's plan.  As those doors closed I became pretty discouraged and thought that perhaps God was closing the doors for me to become a mother at all.  I had many dark days where I'd all but given up on the idea of ever being a mom, but I continued to try to leave my future all in His hands.  Many times I tried very hard to keep my grip on things even a little bit, only to realize of course that when I finally let go and surrendered to God I'd gain more peace than if I'd planned things myself!  During the past few years I have often times thought about the option of doing foster care, but I would usually end up pushing it to the back of my mind because I knew with a crazy night shift nurse's schedule it just wouldn't be a possibility.  I hoped and prayed for an opportunity to change jobs (for a multitude of reasons), but things just never seemed to work out.  At least not when or how I wanted them to!  Then a couple years ago my dear friend convinced me to give school nursing a try as a substitute nurse.  I was hesitant at first because all I had ever done was NICU nursing!  I knew babies not kids or adults!  I finally decided to give it a try though, and within my first couple days subbing I was in love!!  I learned quite a bit in those first several months as a substitute school nurse, so at the end of the school year when a full time position became available I eagerly applied and thought 'This is it!  This is the opportunity I've been waiting for!'.  It will come as no surprise that when I didn't get the job I was heartbroken!  Devastated!  I was even angry at God for in my mind 'dangling the perfect job right in front of me, only to rip it away like a cruel joke!'.  I considered quitting as a sub all together because I just couldn't see continuing to do it knowing it wasn't going to work out in the long run.  But, thankfully my friend encouraged me to continue and try again the following year when there would be more full time openings due to several nurses retiring.  The thought of having to wait an entire year was excruciating at times, but I began to sense a peace about it and tried to be patient.  During that time God also began to mold my heart and open it more and more to the idea of becoming a foster parent.  In a public school system we see a lot of children in foster care, and my heart began to really have a special place for those kiddos who just need a little extra love.  The time came to apply for the full time school nurse positions and I once again did so eagerly!  This time, however, I was offered a position just a few hours after my interview!!  I was ecstatic!!  And now, as I look back, that extra year subbing and gaining experience with the kiddos all makes sense now!  God was preparing me for my current job and preparing me for the next journey he was going to take me on...that of becoming a foster mom!  

God has been preparing my heart and guiding me to this point long before I ever realized it, but I couldn't be more excited to see where this is going to take me!  I'm just in sort of the beginning to middle stages of the process to become a Licensed Therapeutic Foster Parent, which in Indiana is how you are automatically licensed when you go through an agency.  I have spent the last several months doing lots of research, praying, educating myself, and then more praying about how God wanted me to move forward and I'm excited about the path I'm on so far!  I've had so many thoughts and emotions in the past several weeks as I've begun this process; everything from joy and excitement to fear and doubt!  One of the things that God has really been helping me learn and grasp is the whole idea of foster care and what that truly means.  The initial goal for every child placed in foster care is reunification with their birth family, and I truly believe that is the best scenario when it's safe and possible.  My job as a foster parent will be to take in that child/children, provide them a safe environment, and love them the best way I know how for however long they may be in my care!  I'm not a replacement for that child's mother, and I don't want to be.  Will it be heartbreaking to love a child and then see them leave?  Of course, but ultimately it's not about me or my feelings!  It's about these precious kids who just need love, and compassion, and a chance at a life without heartache!  This quote kind of says it all for me "I'm not afraid to grieve.  I'm afraid of what would happen to these children if no one took the risk to love them."  I'm sure I'll be writing much more about this and sharing my journey along the way, but for now I'm just excited to see how this all unfolds!  God is up to some big things and I'm pretty blown away that he's picked me to be a vessel!  

And now maybe you're asking yourself 'how can I help or learn more?'.  Well, if you're interested in learning more about foster care in general message me and I can connect you to some of the resources I used.  If you want to help me...for now the biggest thing people can do for me is pray!  Pray for my heart as I start this journey, pray for the children and the families I'll come in contact with, and pray that God continues to provide and show me how to proceed.  If you want to help in more tangible ways I think I'm going to start a private facebook group for anyone who wants to keep closer tabs on how everything is progressing, and I'll also post ways there to help in more tangible ways.  As the saying goes...it takes a village and I know I will need quite a village on this journey! 

What I've learned in 100 days of being a school nurse...

It's been awhile since my fingers have found this proverbial keyboard to write a "blog post", but I'm entering a time that I think my soul will find a lot of respite in tapping away on these keys.  I've always found writing to be a sort of refuge and cathartic way of expressing myself, so I decided to come back to this old blog, dust off this keyboard, and begin writing again. 

To start I just thought I'd share some experiences from my new job as a school nurse and what I've learned.  We officially hit the 100 days of school mark this week, and there were all sorts of celebrations going on in the school.  My favorite had to be the parade of all the kindergarten students in cute little DIY t-shirts that celebrated the 100 days of school.  There were several kiddos that had glued 100 googly eyes on the shirt, I saw a girl with a photocopied 100 dollar bill on the front of her shirt, a little boy with 100 dinosaur stickers on his shirt, and maybe my favorite the little one with an entire 100 piece puzzle glued to the front of his shirt!  Even the teachers joined in the fun with their decorated t-shirts!  It was so fun to see all the cute little kiddos parading through the office with their shirts and 100 shaped glasses!  So what have I learned in these 100+ days as a school nurse?  A lot...I've learned a lot!!  My first lesson...(which I had already sort of learned as a sub nurse)...Ice cures anything!!  Bump an elbow?  Give them Ice!  Scrape a knee?  Give them a band aid and Ice!  Have a headache?  Give them Ice!  I've not quite figured out what is so magical about Ice, but there is some sort of magical thing that happens once a child has ice in their hands!  Lesson number 2...You can never have enough tissues!  I swear sometimes I go through an entire box in a single day!  Lesson 3...I wear many hats!  What do I mean by that?  Well, in a given day I will usually play the roll of obviously a nurse, but also a counselor, a waitress, a glasses repairer, a shoe cobbler, a mom away from mom, a vision screener, an immunization record keeper, a dentist, and an entomologist (bug person) just to name a few!!  To say that being a school nurse keeps me on my toes would be an understatement!  What else have I learned?  Most importantly I've learned that while being a school nurse is all these fun and light-hearted things, it is also harder and more involved than I ever would have dreamed!  I've learned that my role is not just to be there for the physical well-being of these students I care for, but also their emotional and even mental well-being as well!  For some of these kids, my interaction with them however small it may be, could be one of the few positive interactions they experience during that day.  Those 7 hours or so they are at school could be the only time they see positive adult roll models.  Their school lunch could be the only well balanced meal they get every day.  I've learned to not take this job or my few moments with these kids lightly at all!  I do my best every day to be a positive adult in these childrens' lives!  This job has opened my eyes and opened my heart to so many both wonderful and heartbreaking things, but at the end of the day I wouldn't want to be doing anything else!  There's nothing like having a little 6 year old walk up to you for no reason and just say "Can I hug you nurse?"!!  I love my job and I feel like I now have about 450 kiddos to call "my own"!