Enough...

Enough...that word has been being used in my head the last 24 hours in multiple ways.  At work last night a couple of my coworkers were questioning me as to why I didn't just pick up some extra shifts to help pay for this trip.  That of course planted a small seed of doubt and made me wonder...what if this is all my fault and I haven't tried hard enough?  Maybe I didn't do enough to try to raise the money in time.  Maybe I didn't pray hard enough.  I don't know.  Then yesterday I was given another financial blow, I won't go into details, but I just kept thinking "Enough!!  I can't take anymore!!  I have had enough!!"  Then this morning on my way home from work I heard this song for the first time ever and it had tears streaming down my face...

Here are a couple lines from the song that really stuck out to me:

This time your heart said it's had enough
Sick and tired of everything that's so messed up

And don't give up
And the dark is breaking in today
And just keep on moving through these storms

These walls around you are caving in
And your life seems like it is wearing thin
And your hope is drowning in despair
It looks like you're not going anywhere
Step inside this heart and then you'll see
Such a love that is so amazing

It does sort of seem like the walls are caving in, but I have to just keep running to the One who can rescue me and pick me up and love me in a way I can never fully understand.  It's not east when things keep piling up, but I am going to do my best to keep turning to Him.  He's the only one who can help me through it!!